January 28th, 2024
I’m scared to be alone - I’ve already been alone for so long. Will this be forever? I hear from my intuition, no. And in this moment I’m sitting the feeling of it, and in a void of unknown. Hesitant to let go of things that aren’t serving me, because at least it’s something. If I let it go, then I have to sit with myself again. The pain of loss. The darkness of winter. The somber of loneliness.
But then I look to my soul sisters who are a text away, I look to the altar of love sitting in front of me, and feel my heart break down and weep.
This path I chose before coming into human form, is not easy. I wish more people could go through this evolution with others. But I understand sometimes, our invitation is to be with ourselves. It’s like I’m being given initiations for a life I’ve felt possible for a while now. A life of service to the world is really a life of service to my higher self. A life of letting go and detaching from things that my human self desire because it gives me a superficial feeling of love, security, connection.
As this world on a larger scale crumbles and is reborn, so is each of us. In different ways we are collectively going through a path of fire. Burning and being reborn.
The great phoenix moment of our world.